Dear Santa

Santa if your listening I have a few requests.
The first thing I want for Christmas is time. I miss so much just breathing and not using my brain. I want to take it all in and just enjoy my family. The holidays remind me of that since we see our families so much. I would love to take the girls and just go visit grandparents and friends the way I did as a child. The second thing would be for everyone I loved to know how grateful I am to have them in my life. I often forget to show how much I care for people and am left feeling guilty. I would love a better body image and maybe to for once in my life be satisfied or pleased with myself. I would love for my children to experience life with no hurt or pain. I would like for everyone to know God and his amazing love. I would like to meet my great great grandparents and learn about my roots. I wish my dad (Jimmy) could overcome his ghosts and stop drinking. He is an amazing person when he is sober. I would love to just blink and my hair would be the perfect color. I would love to wake up everyday and know that everything will be great. I wish that Isabelle and Ava would stay the way they are now, forever. I wish that every child every where could experience the magic of Christmas. I wish I had my mom's since of design for the Holidays. I wish that I could see my Pops just once more and tell him thank you for making my Christmas as a child so special. Of all the things i want, the thing I want most is for every broken bruised soul to feel for a moment the breath Of this season and feel love from our king the way I do every day. God Bless

Thanksgiving

This is going to be short and oh so sweet. I know I haven't posted in a long while. That is thanks to my ever so blessed but hectic life. School is almost out and hopefully that will mean more time to let everyone in on our happenings. Thanksgiving is a special time for us all to look back and count our blessings. The food and the people combined to make such a joyous occasion. It is a little bitter sweet for me ,as my most favorite person in the world is having his celebration in Heaven. He always made the holidays so magical for me and without his little twinkle it just never feels the same. I hope that I can one day provide the feelings and memories he has given me to someone else. I desire to have a little twinkle. I hope you all gain atleast a pound and for those whom I won't see I love you all and can't wait to see you soon. Have a Happy Thanksgiving!!!

My Dad

This Sunday I went to church, and before I go any further I must first let you know that I am creature of habbit. I sit in the same row, same seat positioned to ther right of my mother every week. Altering this usaually throws my whole worship off. I dropped isabelle off at her class and headed down to the sanctuary. As I walked down the isle, I noticed my dad sitting alone. Panic washed over me and for a moment I almost ran, then for some reason I got a little excited. I never get to spend time with just him. I made my way down our row, gave him a big hug, and began to think about how lucky my family is to have this man in our lives. There are so many times that his feelings get taken for granted since he is sorrounded by so many women. My sisters and I forget alot about his feelings, and just assume that because he is a man that he doesn't have any. We go on with our lives as if he is just a piece of furniture in our home. We take notice occasionally, but never spend time or talk to him. While we were at church I began to pray for my dad. I want him to know how loved he is and how much I appreciate him. I also prayed that God would open my sister's hearts as well. I am so grateful for my dad and all he does to help our family thrive. he is so loving and tender with Isabelle and Ava the same way my grandfather was with me. They absoulutely adore their G-Dad. He is an amazing man and someone I am proud to know. I am a lucky girl.

Have a blessed day.
love, Lexie

Gentry's Trip

Isabelle is really growing into a sweet little lady. we went on our very first field trip to Gentry's Farm. It was a spectacular time, and it was so much fun to see Isabelle interact with her school friends. We had a picnic under a huge tree, We played in the corn and wheat, and at the end we harvested are own pumpkin. Isabelle of course takes after her GiGI and found the cleanest most perfect shaped pumpkin. i on the otherhand picked a homely little waste of a pupkin. The look on I sabelle's face after seeing my choice was priceless. It was one of confusion and disgust. I guess she thought that I had made a mistake in picking my pumpkin, because when we got back on the wagon, she patted me on the leg and said, "It's okay mom your pumpkin isn't that ugly." That is my child! She is kind but brutally truthful. I am so grateful to have her. I definately suggest a trip too Gentry's . It was a blast.

Be careful Little feet where you go

I was driving home from my parents last night and a song came on the radio. I am still not sure of the name of it, but there is a line in that song that really sunk in " Be careful little feet where you go, because it is the little feet behind you that are sure to follow." Those sweet blessings in my backseat were just jamming away , but all I could do was think about what all I have already shown and taught them in this life, and what an example matt and I set for them. It is so scary to have that much power. I suppose the 'Do as I say not as i do " method isn't going to work. If I want Izzy and Ava to grow up as kind hearted giving Christians, I need to do the same. Matt and I are going to have to do some serious life changing, but to see our girls grow up and live their lives for God will be so worth it. I 'll keep you posted on how things are going.

Life in The fast Lane.

Wow!!!

Life is just moving way to quick for my liking. I am not a fast paced, high tech kind of girl. I am more of a slow moving, can barely check my email type of girl. So you can see my dissatisfaction when the world is moving and changing so fast. I am now humbled by the fact that I used to giggle at my grandparents for not know how to work the V.C.R. I to am having issues with working things. For instance the papertowl holders and faucets in public bathroom stalls. What ever happened to the manual pull your own paper towels, or turn your own water on. Is it really saving that much time? I know it isn't in my case; It is taking me an extra twenty minutes to wash my hands. Oh my and don't even get me started on the automatic flushers. They are just scary. Iguess I got a little off subject, but it just seems that we are all moving so fast, and sometimes I would like to just slow down, and take it all in. I only have this one life, and I really don't want to spend the majority of it trying to figure out how to do something even quicker. However for anyone out there who is an investing situation, while spending my days in the public restrooms I have come up with what I think is the next big thing in high tech" get er done" technology. How about an automatic wiper??? We could make billions. :)


Have a slow day,
Love Lexie